"The Art. The Veil" by David Meltzer





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  .           THE ART. THE VEIL           .

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  .            DAVID MELTZER              .

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            .     THE VEIL     .

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   so sheer between what's right

   and will be wronged

   let's say the Taiwanese couple

   on stage tonight in their launderette

   washing and drying clothing

   watched by two teenagers

   in a non-descript Duster

   windows fogged over with

   potsmoke, fear and talk

   with one gun between them

   and an idea to rob

   not for money

   but to knife that veil

   between them

   and the good life

   





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   In the hole he counted heartbeats

   but got scared they'd stop

   listened to broken pipes

   under the shit-hole in the floor

   finally read the Bible they give you

   but his religion wasn't in a book

   unless it's the telephone book

   so he stayed alive counting

   letters, commas, periods

   

   

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   The veil



   existed before he was born

   and between his arising

   shadowed the world he moved through

   reaching for dim forms he thought

   brought light



   

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   It was perfect

   and we're all good at our jobs

   but someone imperfect

   bumped into the gun

   looking somewhere else

   and all hell broke loose

   but it was only because

   we're good at our jobs that

   everyone got away clean





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   The veil



   between what's called heart

   and the real evil

   

   TV cameras and goons

   monitor constant rebellion

   whispers, life --

   sustaining schemes

   

   Everyone listens

   for their turn

   like Shaharazad

   keep the axe away another day

   

   Listening and telling

   learning how

   but never the same again

   inside or outside

   utterly clear

   about the real evil

   and what is called heart

   



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   The scar



   of that moment

   without time

   clocked rage

   knife thrown at

   Lilith

   lands

   half into my left

   pinky

   half

   onto the table

   time begins in sudden pain

   wound's mouth pours

   reassuring blood

   onto wood

   



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   The veil



   the moment when nothing is left

   no control

   a blank

   time gone

   her kitchen knife

   in your hand

   in her heart

   and a new life begins

   in the old fear

   running out the door

   buried with blood

   everything too clear

   the lights

   no where to go





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   How cold



   outside and inside this iron

   I nightly write against

   on paper she once wore as bride

   down burning stairs

   for my love





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   The piercing



   Sunday late noon

   a needle through his thumb

   straight through it

   the thread almost laughing

   moving in and around

   what would no longer be

   a fingerprint on file

   sworls of skinweb pierced

   torn open just a bit

   and blood managed out like a sap

   he sucked

   knowing full well there was no snake

   except in his head

   asleep, mutating





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  .         THE ART          .

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   Organizing these myths these trends these

       traditions these rituals

       this history this pattern

       this secret this hope



   Organizing these stars into one bright dot of hot

   white light





   As simple as that





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   Once

   each piece of paper

   on the desk, on the dresser

   even on the floor

   could be accounted for

   there for a reason





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   Old Munakata

   like the poet

   looks up

   sees his face in wood

   and cuts it out





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   Old Munakata

   blind in one eye

   the other wide behind

   thick glass lens

   Beethoven's 9th full-blast

   carves a nude woman

   into and out of a wood plank

   as swift as a calligrapher





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   Angel in eyelid moves like a corpse

   floating in pink waters

   molecule wings

   outlined in gold flame



   drifting back and forth across the lens

   bombarded by star points





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   It is easier to say nothing.

   But recently I elaborated.

   Yes, I told the reporter

   My poems are often connected to one

   theme or symbol, long, aspected.

   Yesterday all I wrote were haiku,

   short and final. No difference.



   She took it all down

   in shorthand.





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   Awoke to see the Jew upon a ruin

   Upon the brass bed my body fell to pieces on.

   Perched like a parrot.

   I'm free of you, he whines.

   Free of your bones, your dark hot skin.

   I'm the angel all your poems could never be.

   Look into my eyes.

   What do you see of yourself, your words?

   Walls. Dense and doubled. No door.

   Now go on with your life and let me to mine.

   Sooner or later the visions open up again.

   A familiar wound

   Clanging.





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   Cigarette smoke in my hair

   This is the cafe.

   I open my mouth

   Smoke curls out.

   Not a ghost.

   A poet in the bottom

   Looking up.



   I'm sure it's the city

   I'm a plant not a factory.

   Return me to green.

   I'll be okay

   Watching flowers grow.

   Let it rain.

   The sky reads me like a book.





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   Light on ancient text.

   Flicker of word

   Moving into word.

   They ask me what I do.

   Enough.





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   Abruptly Europe dies.

   Bloody _tallis_ I wave

   To cars to eyes. Dies.

   The silk blazing.





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   Noisily yank a failed poem

   out of the typewriter roller.

   My hair falls into the keys.

   Not grey but silver

   whose light

   reminds me of work

   to be done.





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   It isn't fame or failure

   just so many books to read

   so many words to write

   and the backyard garden is

   Paradise. I could spend

   all day naming things and all night

   breaking promises

   



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   Dawn loon

   silhouette

   skims over the lagoon



   its crazed song

   unable to tame my rage into

   a haiku.





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   The deception of a new typewriter ribbon

   gets him going another few years.





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   The hunt



   in the rain was a failure

   her knees in the mud

   his head hurt from last night

   literature left their guns

   easy to let go of

   rain and more rain

   and enough pain to keep them both

   alive in themselves as cameos

   invoking curses like bullets

   like rain like words against nature

   ruining their hunt

   



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   There's a Europe he holds

   inside imagination unfolds

   a scrapbook he keeps looking for

   his picture among all those beards

   dark drowning eyes

   keeps looking for a picture

   of himself in the double's spark

   or at least his name on a document

   or even a tombstone

   



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   Hero in parts

   

          *--for David W. Peoples*



   You learn how to wait

   as a bird or cat and forget the watch

   and its false future failure.

   He waits for a man with a key to a vault

   to a box with another key

   which opens a drawer in an office

   where a file brings down a clerk

   in a wing on the 7th floor

   of a building whose shadow

   watch-dials Washington streets

   lead out into perfect lawns





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   wired for sound

   Men who belong nowhere

   seem to be everywhere

   working for somebody else

   and all bitter about one thing

   or another which nobody ever learns

   because nobody ever talks.

   You learn to stalk as well as wait

   and in between

   a relief of paperback thrillers

   read in jetplanes

   scratching the sky with code

   someone below deciphers

   twenty different ways.





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   All the light



   He filled blank pages with black ink

   repeating primary news

   amniotically surrounding vision

   before it broke apart

   and a world of shadows

   looms over the survivor

   making noises with their mouths

   



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   Some enter and never leave

   others go crazy beyond paper

   some know certainty in calligraphy

   nobody can read

   and those in between

   scream as pressed flowers





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   Safety valve



   He drinks a glass of light

   never turns off or on again

   is merely present on the page

   scanning





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   End of alphabet

   and it will never appear

   in the right order again

   left to be born

   break through water's glass

   strive for wobbly sphere

   breaking eyes with light





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   Double paper

   

   One page to write on

   above another page

   cushioning metal letter impact

   

   He swears that dented sheet

   makes all ghost words unite

   a Braille the sighted can not touch

   an impulse the blind can not resolve

   



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   Knots



   like fat clouds in blood

   between making or being led

   by song

   

   turn sure, struck from fire

   beads to eat

   glass spheres into a powder

   his art would then reflect

   



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   Break cellophane seal

   of unthumbed cards

   shine like tabletops.

   Possibilities

   similar to poetry.

   



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   What's given up

   given out into her

   her page whose bones

   fan apart.



   Peck, carve

   attack

   bleached tree membrane.





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   The edges

   

   where he thought his life extended

   withdraws like fire-shrinking paper

   and all these years his love was paper

   his body in a vision resembled a tree

   

   where his life retreats

   a lasso knot pulled into itself

   and paper feels like flesh

   his eyes become embarrassed

   watching it withdraw from his touch

   



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   I go through my body and out onto the paper

   She wraps my head in white

   My eyes burn to read

   I can't forget anything

   No word or face or silence

   They go through my body

   Into its streams released

   From openings into air

   Upon the page



   How the world is gone

   every moment we are awake in it.





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   AUTHOR'S NOTE:



   These two works deal with the paradox of confinement,

   THE VEIL are poems which imprinted themselves

   (insisted themselves) during the time I taught writing

   at a state prison. Inmates used the words "outside"

   and "inside" in a sense that I realized, after much

   reflection, were interchangeable and no different than

   similar notions used by the poet to describe his own

   work and being. THE ART is about that work. How the

   inside works its way out and how the outside works its

   way in.





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        THE ART. THE VEIL was first published by       

        Membrane Press, now Light and Dust Books.      

        Copyright © 1981 by David Meltzer.           

                                                       

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